Disney

Here are some pictures from our visits to Disney. We had a blast!!!

3 months

Adjusting to life with an infant is much harder than I expected. Going back to work has been very difficult. It is getting harder to leave Jadon each day. I have even left the babysitter in tears a couple times in the last few weeks. I feel like he is going to forget me, because I am gone for so long each day. He is at such a fun age right now where he is smiling and laughing and starting some firsts. I am scared I am going to miss something that he does for the first time. This is my first baby and I want to be there for all his firsts. I know I will probably miss something, but I don’t want to.

I am very emotional right now, because I am juggling so much and struggling with it. There is so much to do at work to catch up on everything I missed while being on maternity leave. That’s tough, but I am doing what I can each day. All my free time I spend pumping. That has been kinda tough as well. Because I feel like I cannot pump enough even though my lactation consultant tells me I am doing fine. Also I feel like it is so time consuming, but I know it is worth it for Jadon. He deserves to have the best and my breastmilk is the best for him.

Ok all emotions aside…

Jadon is doing great! He is growing quickly and developing his own personality. He is now in size 2 diapers and 3 month clothes. I love spending time with him!!! If he is awake, I am playing with him. That means nothing gets done around the house. I know it will take time for me to juggle being back to work and doing everything at home.

What else?

Jadon is teething. He has his hands in his mouth all the time. He is drooling pretty bad sometimes and is fussy. I give him Tylenol once in awhile when he gets really fussy, but don’t want to give him too much medicine. It is tough not to know what is wrong with him sometimes. I am slowly learning his cries. He loves his tummy mat and plays on it everyday. His head is getting stronger everyday.

My mommy was here for awhile and was a huge help. So much got done while she was here. I want her back cause I cannot do it all myself. Lol

I LOVE being a mom, but at times I feel like I am not doing a good job. I want to do the best job I can, but I know I am putting a lot of pressure on myself.

I am getting very excited for winter break. 2 weeks off of school to spend with my baby. We leave for NY on Sunday and am excited about seeing family and friends. Although it is going to be very stressful having everyone fight over seeing us, well really the baby. No relaxing for me, I can already tell. But I am excited for the holidays and the first for Jadon. I cried the other day thinking about it being his first Christmas. I know I am crazy, but last year I couldn’t have even imagined having a baby this year for the holidays. It is a miracle and I am so blessed for what has happened this year.